Intended Duration: 5 minutes
Actual Duration: 6 minutes
Thoughts: I woke up in the middle of the night, acutely aware of the drop in serotonin that occurs in the brain when sleeping. I wake up in this fashion sometimes with my heart racing. My mind was in the murky depths of itself and I was experiencing the epitome of dark thoughts. These thoughts involve self doubt, paranoia, morbidity, and nihilism. I have learned to remind myself that this experience is just a chemical reaction in my brain, and that I do not really feel this way. I went back to sleep, but woke up with a curiosity about brain functions. All of this meditation has made me quite aware of the subtle changes that occur in my mind, which in turn affect my emotions. My meditation was brief today. I am excited to be doing all of the things I am doing with my self and my life. I just wanted to get going. Daylight savings definitely mess up my sleep cycle, so I was short on time today.
Visions: I breathed in light, and exhaled the dark. I also visited my meditation tree and checked in on myself.